|“||Some girls know all the lyrics to each other's songs. They find harmonies in their laughter. Their linked elbows echo in tune. What if I can't hum on key? What if my melodies are the ones nobody hears?||”|
– Tape 4, Side B
Tape 4, Side B is the eighth episode of the first season of 13 Reasons Why.
The next tape is about Ryan Shaver.
Hannah attends the school's College Fair and realizes that she doesn't have the grades to get financial aide at any university. Hannah is then invited to a poetry reading by the school librarian after he tells her that there are other options in life.
Hannah goes to the poetry reading in order to find her purpose. She notices that Ryan, the school editor, is attending and becomes upset because he published the "hot list" in his zine. Hannah thought that the poetry reading was too corny and decides not to go back. Ryan shows up to her parent's store to apologize for publishing the list and asks her to come back to the poetry reading next week. He then gives her a journal to keep her thoughts in.
Her opinion of Ryan changes when she hears his moving poetry. She then asks Ryan to help her write her own poetry and he agrees.They look for inspiration in Hannah's old diaries. She writes a very personal poem and, of course, Ryan anonymously publishes it in his zine. Hannah becomes upset because her personal thoughts and feelings were published without her consent.
At work, Clay reads Hannah her poem from Ryan's zine without knowing she wrote it. Clay tells Hannah that he liked the poem, but wouldn't want to hang out with the author because they seem like a dark human being. Hannah is visibly upset and goes back to work.
Clay meets with Mr. Porter about him lashing out in the hallway. Mr. Porter questions Clay about how he's doing and implies that he is not okay. This angers Clay and causes him to tell Mr. Porter that "everybody wants to help, but nobody ever wants to do anything about it".
Clay goes outside and sees Tony waiting for him. Clay tells Tony that he can release the tapes if he wants to, as long as he leaves him alone. Tony asks Clay to get in the car and he will explain everything. Clay refuses until he sees Mr. Porter, causing him to get in the car to avoid him.
Meanwhile, the other kids start to get nervous that Clay is going to say something about the tapes. Justin suggests "taking care" of Clay and making it look like a suicide, however the others don't take to the idea. Justin says they have to do something about Hannah's lies, but Alex suggests that he doesn't think Hannah lied since she was telling the truth about him.
Tony takes Clay to the woods and tells him that they must rock climb to the top of a small mountain. Clay asks what this has to do with Hannah in which Tony replies, "don't you want to find out?". Clay struggles, but once they get to the top he is extremely enthusiastic.
Tony reveals to Clay that he was there the night Hannah killed herself. The day she came to give him the tapes, he saw her leave the box at his door and walk away. He didn't go out right away to get them because he didn't feel like being bothered by it yet. Later, he began listening to the tapes and realized what was happening. He tried to go help her but was too late. Clay asks if Tony told the other kids about this and he said no, he told Clay because he is his friend. On their walk down from the mountain, Tony comes out to Clay.
Clay decides that he's ready to continue listening to Hannah's tapes and asks for them back when they return to the car. Tony shows him that he's kept them in his car for him and says he knew Clay would want them back since he hasn't listened to his own tape yet.
Meanwhile, Hannah's parents are still struggling. While out to dinner, they talk to a woman about Hannah as if she is still alive. Her mother tells her father that it is nice to sometimes not be the mother of the dead girl. He suggests moving, but Olivia doesn't think it would help.
Clay shows up to the pharmacy and gives Olivia a copy of Ryan's zine that had Hannah's poem in it. Olivia begins to cry when she realizes its Hannah's handwriting.
|Same Dark Places||Same Dark Places - Single||JR JR|
|Darklands||Darklands||The Jesus and Mary Chain|
|Lir||Bengali Cinema||Garden City Movement|